I Lost My Fear of Ghosts in a Restaurant

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Hi, I'm Jennifer and this is My True Ghost Stories, where I share stories of my supernatural adventures as a spiritual medium, helping trapped spirits to cross over and more. Let's get started. Welcome to My True Ghost Stories. Today I'm going to tell you the story of how my journey as a medium began. And if you've been listening to this podcast for a while, you'll know I've been talking about all different parts of my journey, but today I'm going to tell you the story of how it began.

So this journey as a spiritual medium began, I mean it began when I was a little kid, but it did begin really specifically on this one day when I was having coffee with my friend Victoria. Now my friend Victoria, I've talked about her before on this podcast, she is an intuitive, she does intuitive readings, rakey, astrology, her website is linked in the show notes. And I've been friends with Victoria for a really long time and we were having coffee. And during this coffee date, she was describing to me the circle of guides and ghosts and all these beings, invisible beings that follow her around and she consults with them and talks to them. And she was telling me this story and I was identifying with the part about these ghosts following her all the time.

I was identifying with that. And so she started to describe, as she was describing this circle of guides and spirits around her, she mentioned one and one of them was named Rose and she's saying, and Rose is with me all the time, she sort of follows me everywhere. And I sort of pointed to the part of the table that she was drawing this invisible circle on and I pointed to the spot where she was indicating Rose and I said, aren't you afraid of Rose? And she said, no, well no, why would I be afraid of Rose? So a little bit about me thinking that she should be afraid of Rose or that I would certainly be afraid of Rose was because I was terrified of ghosts all the time.

I always felt like someone was watching me like the song says. I always felt a presence. I always felt these things and I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought I was going to sound crazy. There was only one time in my life that I had told someone. I told my best friend, Deirdre, I was in my late 20s, early 30s and I was having a particularly active ghost haunting night.

In my apartment, I could feel them running all over the apartment and I even saw them like coming out from under the couch. I don't know what was going on that day but some sort of portal was open. I don't know but it was so active in my apartment and I was terrified and I remember my friend called and I told her, I first I beat around the bush and I was saying, you know, I'm just really anxious today. I'm really anxious. I don't know.

I'm so stressed out. And she said, why, you know, what's going on? My best friend is a very open-minded understanding person and I just said, I'm afraid of ghosts. I think my apartment is full of ghosts and now I know that I was right. My apartment was full of ghosts and they were trying to get my attention.

But I was trying to ignore them and that as a life strategy was not working for me. So I don't remember what my friend's reaction was but it was so comforting just to tell someone and I know that her reaction was not one of judgment or thinking that I was crazy. So back to my conversation with Victoria. She said, you know, why would I be scared of Rose? And then I, for the second time in my life, admitted to someone, the very high level of supernatural and paranormal activity that was going on around me all the time.

And I told her that I always see ghosts. Like the little boy says in the sixth sense movie, which I reference often, he says, all the time, which is actually quite accurate. I mean, the stuff that I saw was never as terrifying as it was in that movie, but it really is all the time. So I said this to her, I see them all the time and she thought this was so cool. And she said, really?

You know, are there any here right now? And she just really wanted to hear about it. And so I just said, you know what? I'm going to tell her the whole story. Right now, I'm going to tell her the whole scene that I see right now.

So I told her, okay, this is scary, but there are some kids playing over to my left. There's a woman standing facing the corner back there to my right. And this one was the most significant of all. I said, there's a guy sitting at the table behind you giving me the thumbs up. And she said, well, you know, that doesn't sound so scary.

And this was huge for me. Oh, it's not that scary. Victoria doesn't think that's scary. She thinks it's cool. So I thought, well, maybe I don't need to be scared all the time.

She said, I mean, they're just people. So this was a really necessary step in my journey as a spiritual medium was to lose the fear and see these entities for what they were, you know, people, souls in a different form than I am. And I had to also acknowledge that I felt incredible sadness coming from them. Most of them were incredibly sad. Now, in this situation, the kids playing over to my left were not incredibly sad.

And the guy behind Victoria sitting at the table giving me the thumbs up, he was not incredibly sad. But the lady in the back corner facing the wall, she was very sad. So this stage of the journey, this lunch date, coffee date with Victoria, was before I knew what they wanted or how I could help them. Now I think they knew that I could help them. I don't know how they knew, but I think they could tell that I could help them.

And that's why they were trying to get my attention for my whole life. So I really feel like this conversation where I got total acceptance from someone who also felt ghosts, my friend Victoria, the intuitive, and the concept that I did not need to be afraid of them. This really began the journey as a spiritual medium and set me on the path to helping these trapped spirits. Now two of the ghosts from this little scene here that I just described, I wound up helping them many years later and they were both significant to the progression of my medium ship. And I'm not afraid now.

I am no longer afraid of ghosts the way I was before I had this conversation and I gradually became less and less and less afraid as I got exposed to more and more scary things and my tolerance grew and my ability to protect myself grew. And in hindsight, I see that things in my journey as a medium have been happening in a linear fashion. I kind of wish that these things had happened earlier like my conversation with Victoria because I would have had less fear for my whole life, but there's probably some reason that I don't know yet why I was supposed to be so terrified for most of my adult life and childhood. But it happened when it happened and really important connections happened to guide me along this journey. So connections were made with people, people like Victoria.

Connections were made with spirits who were doing a job on this earth like the guy giving me the thumbs up. I'll tell you that story another time, but he was doing a job on this earth and part of his job was guiding me and connections were made with spirits who need help. Many years later, I wound up helping the woman spirit who was standing facing the wall in the restaurant. And I will tell that story also in another episode. The most important thing that happened here is this conversation with Victoria opened up the subject of guides and none of this could be done without guides.

Like any career path, hobby, you're really best off with someone guiding you. And these guides that I got into my life are spirits on the other side who guide, protect, tell me what the next step is, tell me what I should do in each situation, tell me what the spirit needs. And it is a huge subject. And someday I keep talking about these episodes that are coming up. Some day I will tell a much more comprehensive story about my guides and guides in general.

But today I'm just going to say that it was crucial that I was introduced to guides by Victoria that day. I was decluttering my house recently, which is something I'm really getting into these days. It certainly helps. But I was decluttering and I found this tiny little notebook that I started right after this significant coffee date where I learned to not be afraid of the ghosts. And I'm really glad I started this little journal because there's so much stuff in there that I forgot.

Now I know eventually I stopped keeping the journal because I got really comfortable with the ghosts and it actually started to get repetitive because a lot of the ghosts needed the same thing. And so I just kind of stopped writing it all down. But these first few entries are so telling. So I'm going to read you one of the first entries in my little ghost-busting journal that I started to keep in the beginning. So this is a page I wrote down and it was a conversation that I was having with my main guide who's not the guy giving me the thumbs up.

It's another guide and I'm actually not ready to tell the story of how me and this guide initially connected but I'll tell that someday. But right now here's the conversation from my main guide from this notebook. And in the entry I say, I think I need to think of it as service to the spirits more than service to the people because that's the message that I was getting. And then in this conversation with my guide I started to get answers from him. And in the journal I wrote down a bunch of words that I was hearing that started with a C.

It was like California counting. It was something that started with a C which is how messages come in for me and then eventually the word calling came through. And then there was another word with a C. What is it? And it was compassion.

So I think in my early development as a spiritual medium I was seeing that there's lots and lots of help for the living. You know there are these really great mediums who can give you messages from your departed ones and there are sayances and there are ghost busting types of things. But I have been called to be of service to the departed, particularly those who are earthbound. Now I definitely get messages for the living and I pass them on. I'm not saying I don't do that.

But my main calling is to help trapped spirits to cross over and I have the ability to do so. And I think they've always known that and that's why they have been running around me my whole life. Now there's definitely lots of interest in paranormal activity and ghosts and spirits. And I know it can be really thrilling to have a ghost talk to you or to hear whispers. I know it's scary but some people really like it.

But I couldn't ever enjoy that because I feel the pain of these spirits and I know that I can help them. So I will only go into a paranormal situation, supernatural situation, a haunted situation with the intention of helping and I always can. I have not gotten to a situation yet where I was unable to help. So that is what my calling is and I believe that that's why I have been given this gift is to help trapped spirits to cross over because I think in this world I think there's a big problem of a lot of trapped spirits who have not been able to cross over because of a lack of understanding of their situation. And I am here to talk about the understanding of their situation and what we could possibly do about it.

I would like to encourage more sympathy for trapped spirits because trapped spirits do exist and I would like to encourage an attitude of compassion and understanding for them because they are sad, often desperately sad, confused, frustrated, trying to communicate and they really need our help. I think a compassionate approach to them is a great first step. And here is a list of all the episodes that I promised to do while I was doing this podcast and I will use it as a bit of a to-do list. So the episodes that I have promised to do are one about the guy giving me the thumbs up behind Victoria, an episode about helping the woman who was facing the wall in the restaurant, an episode about guides in general and an episode about my main guide. So those are the ones that I said that I would do and I will.

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